Beast: A Hate Story, The Beginning by Mary Catherine Gebhard

Once upon a time, I thought love was a fairytale. 

I thought selling myself to a mafia boss was noble. So what if they called him the Beast? I grew up in rags, and he would lift me to riches. All I had to do was give him my soul. 

He was punishing. Insatiable. Captivating. Nothing like I expected him to be. Each day my reality blurred, leaving me wondering if I was slave or princess.

The longer I stayed, the more I lost myself to him. Even after every cruelty the Beast visited upon me, I longed for his touch. Even after every savage word he spoke, I begged for his lips. I thought the worst thing he could take was my body. I was too naïve to guard my heart.

Once upon a time, I thought love was a fairytale.

Now I know better than to speak of happily ever afters.

Beast is the first book in the Hate Story duet. About what it means to fall in love with the person who has absolutely destroyed you, it contains disturbing and graphic situations that may be a trigger for some.


ellie's $0.02:

This book was deliciously agonizing and torture-ridden.  My mind is all fucked up.  My body has jitters.  I don't know what I like or don't like.  I'm all kinds of a messed up.

Beast is the worst possible nightmare.  At times while reading this I wanted to throw the book at the wall... then I realized I would have to jump up and find the book to find out what would happen next.  Beast is definitely an enigma.  I can't figure him out.  I didn't figure him out.  I think I hate him.  I might like him.  I don't even know.

And then something switched.  I don't even know how.  I don't even know when.  My mind was taken over. 

This book is a constant back and forth.  Is this a love story?  Is this a hate story?  Do I want a love story?  Do I want a hate story?   Any author that can jumble my mind and my emotions like this one did, deserves a standing ovation.

Written in an interesting dual POV.  Told by Frankie and told about Beast/Anteros.  But never told by Beast.  I loved it.  I love not knowing what he is thinking.  It's delightfully mysterious.

Gebhard does an amazing job of pulling you in.  Pushing you out.  And making this a constant, consistent wonderment of what is going to happen next.  I found myself constantly asking myself if I even liked the characters.  But I loved it.  I loved everything about the plot, the characters, the writing style. 

And just to mess with you more, it does end in one helluva cliffhanger.  Cripes.  The torture is delicious.  I don't even know my own name at this point.