Fire in You (Wait for You #6) by Jennifer L. Armentrout
Jillian Lima’s whole world was destroyed in a span of a few hours. The same night her childhood love, Brock ‘the Beast’ Mitchell, broke her heart, her life was irrevocably altered by the hand of a stranger with a gun. It takes six years to slowly glue together the shattered pieces of her life, but Jillian is finally ready to stop existing in a past full of pain and regret. She takes a job at her father’s martial arts Academy and she’s going out on her first date since a failed relationship that was more yuck than yum. Jillian is determined to start living.
She just never expected Brock to be a part of her life again. But he’s firmly back in her life before she knows it, and not only is he older, he’s impossibly more handsome, more teasing and more everything. And when he sees Jillian, he’s no longer capable of thinking of her as the little girl who was his shadow growing up or the daughter of the man who gave him a second chance at life. He sees the woman who’d always been there for him, the one person who believed in him no matter what.
Brock knows she’s the one he should’ve made his, and what begins as a tentative friendship quickly turns to red-hot chemistry that sparks a flame that burns brighter than lust. Falling for Brock again risks more than her heart, because when the past sorrow-filled and guilt-ridden past resurfaces, and a web of lies threatens to rip them apart, the fallout could lay waste to everything they’ve fought to build together, and destroy the dreams of those they care most about.
I’m just going to put it out there….I think Brock is an ass. Nothing he did through the entire story really changed that opinion for me. He became slightly less of an ass by the end, but yep….still and ass.
I get that Jillian has followed him around since he was fourteen years old, but she’s never hidden that she basically worshiped the boy/man and there is no conceivable way that he didn’t know that. Which, in my opinion makes him the ass I previously noted… He was so caught up in his own celebrity that he walked all over her feelings and just didn’t seem to care that he did. Even the night that Jillian’s whole world comes crashing down, he callously blew her off in favor of hanging with the skank he eventually got engaged to. I’m still a little bitter on Jillian’s behalf…
As far as I’m concerned, Jillian was better off without him. I know…that doesn’t make a good story. I know we’re supposed to be happy for Jillian that Brock has finally seen her as a woman, but I just wanted to tell her to run. I’m not saying that Brock doesn’t attempt to make up for his past actions…he does. But he still hides a lot of stuff from her that she had a right to know when she got involved with him. Like the fact that his ex-fiance is actively attempting to get back together with him….yeah, that’s something that is definitely something you share with the person you’re currently seeing.
The only thing that saved this book for me was seeing Jillian come into her own. This is a woman who has lived through a traumatic, life crushing event. She’s still dealing with the fallout and yet she’s found the strength to pull herself out of the depression and apathy that she’s succumbed to and start living again. Part of taking back her life involves letting go of her past and dealing with Brock. I didn’t need long declarations of love from Brock. I do think he regretted how he treated Jillian in the past, but I never got the feeling that he ever saw her as someone he loved as anything other than a kid sister until he reconnected with her years later. And that, to me, is why I think Jillian deserved better.